I don’t think I have been this completely exhausted since I started this journey. Today was my first day back at work after vacation, and it was beyond busy. I had so many emails and tasks to manage I barely got a break for lunch. Then, when the work day was over, it was time for exercise. I went to a muscle challenge class followed by a yoga class. I really wasn’t sure I’d be able to finish. Somehow I did. I think the combination of mental and physical exhaustion is going to make this a very early night.
On one hand, I’m really proud that I made it through. I pushed myself really hard in the muscle challenge class, doing many, many reps with medium-heavy weights. That class finished with lots of ab work, and I was so glad to have a couple minute break between classes. Then, the yoga class started. It was an active night with a lot of sun salutation sequences. I don’t think I’ve gotten up and down from the floor to standing so much in the last year as I did tonight. I am definitely going to feel this in the morning!On the other hand, I get so frustrated with myself. There is still so much that I can’t do. I can’t support my weight on my wrists, so I can’t hold a basic down dog pose for more than a few seconds. My stomach gets in the way of a lot of poses, so I can’t get as deep of a stretch as I’d like. And, my balance stinks. But, I think I did more tonight than I did last week. And, I hope I will be able to do more on Wednesday than I did tonight. So, even though I get incredibly frustrated, I still have hope. And, hope is what keeps me going. Hope, and all of you following along and supporting me. That does mean the world to me!